Choosing Myself Over Expectations

It's not gonna be easy, but hey – nothing worth having ever is.

I want to talk about something real today – the messy, complicated, sometimes downright confusing world of relationships. Specifically, about that moment when you realized you're carrying way more weight in a relationship than you signed up for.

So, picture this: you dive headfirst into a relationship, all starry-eyed and hopeful. You think you can be the hero, swooping in to save the day and fix all the problems. But somewhere along the line, things get a little... tangled. What started as a noble quest turns into a never-ending cycle of putting out fires and shouldering more than your fair share of the load.

Sounds familiar? Yeah, been there, done that. And let me tell you, breaking free from that cycle is no easy feat.

Leaving that relationship meant shaking off the expectations – both mine and everyone else's. See, it's not just about dealing with your partner's reactions; it's about facing the raised eyebrows and the whispered judgments of their people too. They don't get why you're choosing to hit the road, leaving their loved one in the dust.

But here's the thing they don't see: the nights spent tossing and turning, wrestling with the guilt and the doubt. The endless cycle of trying to balance your own happiness with the needs of someone else. It's like trying to juggle chainsaws – sooner or later, something's gonna give.

So, I made a choice – a choice to put myself first, even if it meant ruffling a few feathers. Because let's be real, you can't pour from an empty cup. And as much as I wished I could be the superhero swooping in to save the day, sometimes the best thing you can do is save yourself.

To those who don't get it, who think a person with views like these is bailing on someone in need – I hear you, but you don't walk in their shoes. You don't feel the weight of the world on your shoulders, or the tug-of-war between your heart and your sanity.

Leaving that relationship wasn't just about walking away; it was about reclaiming my happiness, my sanity, and my sense of self. And yeah, it was scary as heck. But you know what's even scarier? Waking up one day and realizing you've lost yourself in trying to save someone else.

So here's to breaking free, to choosing me over the expectations, and to embracing the messy, beautiful journey of rediscovering who I am. It's not gonna be easy, but hey – nothing worth having ever is.